Still Alive

Haven't posted due to the reponsibility of taking care of the house while my parental untis are on the road. I'll never take my mother for granted with the house work, for a house so small, it requires the cleaning to be on a rotating schedule..everyday I have to do a major chore and a minor chore as needed. Wow, that sounds so A type for me...but after spending a much needed weekend away from my sister's kids. I got to hang with my best friends and I learned to play Magic the Gathering and try out all the decks except green. My favorite are White and Black decks.I was so surprised how simple it was to play..it helps having a friend who's memorized the rule book. I'm nicer when I play white and blue magic , but I'm really mean when I play red or black.

I also learned to play all the instruments in Rockband . I'm the best at Vocals, bass, then guitar..but I suck at drums >_<. Raz and I love Singstar as well so that helps. Our favorite song to play : Crush, Crush, Crush by Paramore and Still Alive . I also like doing White Wedding by Billy Idol.

Haven't had much sleep, my mind won't shut off..haven't dreamed for nearly 2 weeks. I trying to get off Caffiene and take some herbals to help sleep. Warm milk or valerian tea helps the most. But I just sometime have to work hard , like gardening or chores to sleep.

Been trying to set aside time for just drawing/painting. I just don't feel right until I've drawn something and it's been really missing from life lately. My situation still is a viscious cycle but I'm alwys hoping that'll I find that way out. I've had a hard last two months since a certain someone let me go , but still says he wants to be friends..still doesn't know when to just give me some more time/ more room...I'm still angry at him. I'm still alive is that an answer to your question?